Well the lyrics, in a way, may imply that. Some sources say that this song was written for Adam’s girlfriend, but who can really be sure though, right? The lyrics are quite sad and express nostalgia and sorrow.
A source says:
Adam Young’s girlfriend had unfortunately passed away. This song seemed to be written after this sad event.
Below is a line by line analysis and the general consensus of the meanings behind the lyrics of “Vanilla Twilight” by Owl City.
The stars lean down to kiss you
I can picture you there, lit up by the moonlight
And I lay awake and miss you
But you’re not actually there and I miss you. So I just lay here awake and alone thinking about you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
I snap back to reality but I want to go back
‘Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly But I’ll miss your arms around me
I just want you to hold me again and I will finally be able to sleep only if I’m in your arms.
I’d send a postcard to you, dear ‘Cause I wish you were here
Note the “I’d” implies she is no longer there but if the singer had an opportunity to, he would. He wants to be able to see or contact his loved one.
I’ll watch the night turn light blue, But it’s not the same without you, Because it takes two to whisper quietly
I can repeat everything we once did, but it will never be the same if you’re not there.
The silence isn’t so bad
I try to convince myself that I can move on
‘Til I look at my hands and feel sad ‘Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly
But everytime I try I know that I can’t.
I’ll find repose in new ways , though I haven’t slept in two days , ‘cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
I miss you so much I can’t sleep and feel all alone
But drenched in vanilla twilight , I’ll sit on the front porch all night , waist-deep in thought because when I think of you I don’t feel so alone
But when I think about you under the moonlight imagining you are there as well I feel a lot better.
As many times as I blink I’ll think of you tonight, I’ll think of you tonight
I think of you constantly
When violet eyes get brighter and heavy wings grow lighter , I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again. And I’ll forget the world that I knew , but I swear I won’t forget you
Until the day I die, I can forget everything and leave everything behind but I will never forget about you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
If only you could hear what I’m trying to say
I’d whisper in your ear, “Oh darling, I wish you were here”
I would tell you I miss you
for Owl City fans in the Philippines :)